Where to now?

There's a sign in my yard. A noticeable, friendly sign, informing passersby that, "Hey! This place is for sale!" I'm not sure how I feel about it. We wanted to respectfully share with our neighbors that this sign was going to make an appearance. It seems like a snowball has been shoved down a hill. No stopping now kind of thing. So, there's a sign in my yard. We're officially listed on a fancy realty website. And so now we wait.
We headed back to Ashland today to go to the fair with Ryan's parents and our nephews. The kids had a great time. Rides, cotton candy, animals, the whole bit.  And, it was weird to be there. Being in the familiarity. The comfort of that. I found it harder than I thought. Sitting on top of the ferris wheel with Hope, I was seeing familiar faces, familiar places. And, in the midst of all of that familiarity, there was that feeling of not belonging there, either. That our ship had sailed. So, here we are. Being in that in between. Limbo land.
I am wanting so hard and so much for my children to be at home. Wherever we are. Location doesn't matter. It really doesn't. To feel that feeling of when you come home from vacation and you walk in the door and you smell that smell of family and its like that atmosphere just reaches out and says, "I'm glad you're here!" That. That is what I want. My heart longs for soulfriends for my kids, and for me, and for Ryan. We are so thankful for this time, even in its difficulty, because we are realizing how very precious we all are to each other. The time that we can spend strengthening our relationships, finding new ways to relate to each other, soldiering through all of those difficult times. Most of all, we are realizing the awesome provision of God. Those times are truly priceless. They are truly necessary. I'm praying for grace and the Lord to smooth out those rough patches and to fill what I feel our hearts are lacking.
So meanwhile, there's this sign. :-)

Realty Adventures

Our realtor is coming tomorrow. Again. He came a couple of weeks ago to look at some of the improvements we've done around here. We've notified a neighbor that we're thinking of selling. (Insert barfing here.)

So, so far this is a secret blog. Not until we've really moved down the timeline towards Spring and an ever impending move to the North will I let the blog out of the bag. I don't like being secrety. I don't like having this fantastical knowledge that is so life-upending hiding inside of me. If I think long and hard, I get sick to my stomach and nervous and anxious and so very distracted. Excitement and fear in one giant ball of fun.
When looking to the future, when planning something so extraordinary, it must be handled with delicate fashion. So, we're taking it a step at a time. We're just not at the notify level yet.

Every once in a while, I have this great desire to journal my thoughts in bloggy fashion. Never having done a blog, this is her maiden voyage.